Journey to the Eye of the Tornado

if we fail, try and try againI was awake

and well i got nothing better to do

so i went onto facebook

and see a buddy of mine emoing...

Seeing what he writes on his post

i kinda know how he feels

fact is

i was feeling just pretty much the same

for the past few weeks

and i must admit

although i still feel it very much

but hey i aint the only one so i keep my mouth shut

and smile teehee

Anyways

I think id share what it was that was and is still

bottling it up inside...

so that u guys dont have to feel it

Fact 1 was that I always seem to say things which hurt

others....

well i know its kinda lame right =p

but it was in my head for one whole dam week

and it reallyyyyyy got me down abit haiz

You know how you sometimes try to do something

to cheer everyone up

but fail miserably

and end up either pissing ppl off or making everyone emo

erm well dats my category lol

The fact that this quotient was stuck in my head

got me paranoid....really really paranoid

i was scrutinizing all my friends action

down to the last detail

and man it really got me down

because my head would start making up

weird conclusions to everyones actions

which to be really honest felt like

my heart was being torn out from me

RAW....it was the reason why

i tried not to look into any of ur faces TT

guilty...

And then came the self blame part

When all hope seems lost

we start to 1st blame everyone around us

then finally blame ourself

i am not the fella dat goes on blaming everyone else

i would be the one blaming most on it on myself

which brings us back to point A...

all the down right nonsence we did since day one

will be put in front of me to see and dictate myself

and being in that situation at that moment

it was like giving a gun to a man wanting to die

IT WAS HELL DAM IT....

There were  many times where everything seems bleak

and death mocked me with a smile

But then

...

things calmed down after that

Physics help me preoccupy my mind

A nice cooool bath help in calming my mind

and a nice long walk help me clear my mind

when it was all rebooted...

well

it still took me a while to think over this

and hey...i wished i realised this abit tad sooner

cause the damage it had done had already taken place

But fact is....

WE ARE FRIENDS ARENT WE.....(at least for the guys)

We poke fun at each other 

We wack each other to a pulp

We annoy the heck out of each other

We help each other when any one is down

and WE ALWAYS HAVE FUN =p teeheee

Well

i am not saying that making people piss is a good thing

dats why i am practicing something called silence dis days

But hey,

This is life, trial and error

we try to get everyone up and moving,

if it hurts then dont do it again

but in the end we are still friends right

if in the end things dont work out

then i guess it was never meant to be

and fact is

we are still here arent we =p

Anyways to whom dis may be relevent to

Dont be down,

i know i know

the reason why ur down might be friends to begin with

so finding friends might not be the best of options

but hey

sitting around

and waiting for GOD to help you

is not much help at all

 because

LIFE IS A BITCH

it whines alot when it doesnt get what it wants

it grumbles alot when u take away what it wants

it complains when u give it something of ALMOST equivalent value

But

when u need help it simply walks away and leave u to rot...

Well that being said

heres a song dedication to u though

a not so old but meaningful song if u understand

tata

and by the way guys

"On My Honour

I promise not to emo nemore

to do my duty to 6rb

to help people at all times

and to obey ALMOST all the sch rules"

If i fail to uphold my promise

plz gimme a nice kick in the ass or sumthing kay =p

And for the last time
and i am really lazy of saying dis anymore
S.O.R.R.Y.........guys....

Yours stupidly

Quah

(fortis Atque Fidellis)

be strong and faithfull